his journey into Bloghood for over a year now since I discovered them over two years ago when I began to embrace my natural hair! I mean I became so obsessed I literally spent day and night at work, on my phone, or anywhere else I could find access looking up blogs...which then gave me the confidence which led to working up the nerve to cut all my hair off and do the Big Chop (WOOO WHOOO is that right? I don't know!)...
Anywho, that is not what I am hear to talk about (I mean if you care and ask I will kindly share some of my experience with you) so I will kindly get to the point! Last night was my 4 Year Anniversary to my husband. It feels like 10, if you are or have been married I am sure you can agree ;-) and in the 6 years that we have known each other we have been through just about any and everything you can think of Sex, Lust, Friendship, Relationship/Marriage, Lying, Cheating/Adultry, Sin, Anger, Child Birth, Step Parenting, Bitterness, Bad Money Mgt, etc. and etc. I think you get the point may even be wondering why we are still married. Well we have threatened Divorce numerous time (me a whole lot more then I can count) and when I sit down and think about it that is not what I want. Don't get me wrong I believe in divorce especially if it is effecting your well being or your children (POINT BLANK PERIOD)!!!
It is just not what I want for my Spouse and I, at least without completely turning it over to God and letting him have complete control of Me and my Marriage (one partner must be willing to give him more then just lip service (yeah you all know what that is). If not kindly ask me about it...lol. Although we have had lots of Bad when we have Good it is Good (we talk, we joke, we laugh, and just bring an overall peace and calm to our home). I want that to become an everyday occurrence... rebuild a trust, rebuild a genuine best friendship, and foundation that will carry us through any STORM (BECAUSE LETS FACE IT ALL MARRIAGES FACE STORMS) the difference is rather it is man against woman against storm or Man, God, Woman (teammates) against Storm. I want a teammate, No I will have a teammate to live out this thing called life!
We both have to want this and we both have some changes to make starting with ourselves individually (my husband and I have wasted many a days and nights as many spouses I am sure can relate waiting for the other to give in and get on board with the way either one feels things should work out to their benefit and IT JUST DOESN'T WORK THAT WAY (IN MOST CASES)!
Change begins within, so hear are a few of mine you lovely gals can hold me accountable to...
1.)Put God First
" So watch yourselves, that you do not forget the covenant of the Lord your God which he made with you, and make for yourselves a graven image in the form of anything against which the Lord you God has commanded you. For the Lord is a consuming, jealous God." (Dueteronomy 4:23-24)Man man man have I done this and anything can be the head of your life and before God...Self (because self is stubborn and wants what it wants when and how it wants), Spouse (loving your spouse (husband) in my case more then any and everything in my life putting him on a pedal stool where it was his way or no way, anything he said was basically final word), worrying, anxiety, stress (allowing your problems to become the forefront of your life and keep you in bondage)...some of those are just a couple of my things and it is time to answer the call because God has been calling me to allow him (because he won't force you) to regain Control and be first in my life. I have given him much lip service and even put forth the steps to give him the control but I need to actually form a intimate relationship with him because honestly no one will ever love me like he does (I mean he gave his only Son so that I can have life) and I can't even say I can make that sacrifice of my son because he means the entire world to me even in his 3 year old stubbornness lol so that right there must tell you that us as mere human beings aren't capable of loving another human being like Him and he made us that way for a reason so that we always seeks him or will yearn him! He does not let up and in most cases you will continue to learn the hard away until you allow him to love on you and have the relationship he desires for our benefit at that!
So, I know you ask what has taken me so long to realize this in my old age of 26 lol...hmmm I am stubborn, think I can do it on my own and boy has he showed me time and time again that boo, I better make this commitment so I can live the beautiful life he has desired for me or boooooooooo keep learning the same lessons over and over and over that he has been trying to instill in me...all coming back to he must be number 1 in my life!!!! "YOU GONE LEARN TODAY" (IN KEVIN HEART VOICE)
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2.) Respect/Submission...
"Wives in the same way submit to yourselves to your own husbands so that if any of them do not believe the word, they maybe won over without words by the behavior of their wives, when they see purity and reverence of your lives." (1 Peter 3:1)**Allow me to check this right now and clear it up OKAYYY, this scrpture or word "SUBMISSION" can be taken out of context and is misused too often especially by husbands (mine is no exception) wives too...the husband is not to be ruler over the wife, doing any and every thing that he see fit, treating her any ole' way, expecting her to do any and everything he say UHHH NO BOO BOO (SAT DOWN) the husband is to submit his life and will to God and the wife while the wife is submitting herself to the husband and God which in turn will complete the circle, bring Glory to God and all the needs of both spouse will be met!
Now that I cleared that up before I get yelled at, the wife is suppose to respect my husband. In my anger and bitterness I have been very guilty of not showing my husband fairness, respect, or love! Men equate RESPECT WITH LOVE, women on the other hand equate LOVE WITH RESPECT (think about it, it is all the same different title). He is human, he has feelings (emotions), and he makes mistakes just like any other human being walking God's Green Earth! First and foremost, God loves him flaws and all...who am I especially as his Wife (Better Half lol) not to show him love and respect especially when I have had my own share of wrong (maybe not as bad as his...but when God looks down on us all no Sin is bigger or smaller then the next and he loves us through it all)...I expect him to understand me and met me halfway so I must be a willing participant!
Okay, ladies this is just the beginning I can't wait to share more of my stories, lessons, and all that good stuff with you all. I hope you continue to follow my journey (and maybe a few young (and old) ladies will learn from my past so it will be one less path traveled) cause I plan to be upfront and raw with you all...until next time!
Is God first in your life? Where did you begin? Sisters (and Mothers is you have stumbled upon my story) in Christ help me out!!
What are some lessons you have learned in you marriages?
Feel free to comment and leave constructive advice (you can email me too)...
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